and so I face the final curtain.

Thanks to our inept government who have cut NHS funding until Doctors have to make excuses for not treating people, I am not going to be treated.

Being diabetic I take a lot of tablets. For some reason my cholestrol has gone out of control, however the diabetes is now well under control. I am also overweight.

My Dr has demanded that to receive any further treatment I MUST give up smoking.

One of the main reasons I smoke is because I live such a stressful life being a 24/7 carer for my wife. In that capacity I help save the country £160 billion a year by looking after my wife at home rather than insisting the NHS or social services take care of her.
I am over weight for the same reason. Because I spend much of my day babysitting!! I cannot leave my wife alone for long, however I DO get out when I can. Usually at least an hour a day.

My smoking may contribute towards the £1.5 billion smokers' cost the NHS each year with smoking related diseases - but in taxes on cigarettes I also contribute to the £8 billion, exceeding, that figure.

So on all fronts I am being a model citizen, and being treated like shit. Was it my fault I started smoking on my 8th birthday? I doubt it. I was in council care at the time.

So, a tablet that costs £1 a day and could lengthen my life is being denied me. I am not overly bothered.

Life is pretty shitty and death would be a luxury. But that death is being hastened by the government.

Perhaps I should hasten it completely, it makes no real difference to me. In fact, rather than suffer heart disease that incapacitates me and strips me of any dignity I may have left, to euthanase myself would be preferable.

I use euthanase instead of suicide because suicide is to do with depression, whereas euthanasia is to do with releasing oneself from a useless life or an undignified life and death.